This summer, something that we thought was impossible happened. If you know us personally or have read our story page, you will understand the incredible shock we experienced when we learned I was PREGNANT.
I’ve never been pregnant.
About 10 years ago, I was told that my fimbriae around my Fallopian tubes were so damaged from endometriosis that natural pregnancy would likely NEVER occur. When my period was 2 weeks late in July, my first reaction was, “well, here we go… I’m starting early menopause!”
I had let go of the dream of carrying a baby many years ago. We weren’t trying for a baby.
We were happy as a family of three.
It’s a MIRACLE!
I will never forget the way I felt seeing the word “PREGNANT” on that digital pregnancy test. Rich and I screamed with joy. It felt like a thousand butterflies were flying inside my body. I was on top of the world. My childhood dream finally came true!!! How did this even happen?! It was a miracle! I wanted to shout the news from the rooftops. I wanted everyone to know about our miracle baby!
I finally went in for my first OB appointment when I was about 8 weeks along. There was complete silence as the doctor looked for a heartbeat.
My heart sank.
“There is a beautiful amniotic sac, but no embryo.”
Anembryonic Pregnancy (aka: Blighted Ovum, Missed Miscarriage)
The doctor told me I had an anembryonic pregnancy. Somewhere along the line, the embryo stopped developing (most likely because of some kind of chromosomal abnormality), but my body still thought I was pregnant. I waited another week to do some additional testing to confirm that this was true. Once confirmed, I went in for a D&C to clear out everything.
My body has finally healed, but I’m still processing my emotions. Grieving will take time. I’m struggling to find the words to express my feelings, so I will wait on that. Many women (and families) experience miscarriage, yet we rarely hear about it. I share my story in hope of helping others to not feel so isolated. If you’ve experienced loss, I’d love to hear from you.
Your story matters. Your baby matters.
You are not alone.